Window Half Open (Indie Slightly)

Verse 1

I ate cereal for dinner

Scrolled my phone till my eyes got sore

Found a sock from last December

Haven’t cleaned up the bedroom floor

Texted “sorry

I’ve been busy”

Truth is

I just couldn’t move

Watching dust dance in the sunlight

Trying to remember what I’m trying to prove

Chorus

Some days I’m up

Some days I’m nowhere

Brain like a browser with a thousand tabs open in the air

I’m not broken

I’m just in repair

So I’ll breathe in once

Breathe out twice

Call it progress when I step outside

I’m not okay

But I’m on my side

(on my side, on my side)

Verse 2

Therapist says “name the feeling”

I say “uh… it’s like static rain”

Laugh at jokes that aren’t that funny

Just to take the weight off my name

Left a mug in every room now

Little ghosts of the days I lost

But I watered all my houseplants

Tiny proof I can carry my own cross

Chorus

Some days I’m loud

Some days I’m quiet

Heart like a crowd and I can’t break up the riot

I’m not broken

I’m just gonna try it

So I’ll breathe in once

Breathe out slow

Write my worries in a note

Then let it go

I’m not okay

But I’m showing up though

(showing up, showing up)

Bridge

If healing was a straight line

I’d have finished long ago (hey)

But it’s coffee stains and late nights

Leaving parties early just to be alone

So if I only did one small thing today

That’s still a seed I planted anyway

Chorus

Some days I’m here

Some days I’m hiding

Mind takes the wheel and I’m just riding

I’m not broken

I’m just still deciding

So I’ll breathe in once

Breathe out twice

Keep the window cracked to let in a little light

I’m not okay

But I’m still gonna fight

(still gonna fight, still on my side)